It’s the taxes that get me.
Oh, I know the steps I intellectually need to take, and know that it’s only fear holding me back. I can figure all of this out.
Beta readers, covers, wrapping up stories, ISBNs, copyright. I can take each bit separately, one piece at a time.
But I let the taxes hold me back, because that’s the point where it feels overwhelming.
So in the meantime, I trick my brain into continuing to make progress. Fine, fine, brain. You don’t want to figure out taxes yet? Well, it’s almost the end of the calendar year anyway. If you wrap up these stories and work on the rest of it, it’ll all be there in CY21. There’s plenty of time to talk to a tax professional. Start off fresh in the new year. You’ll have everything ready to go.
At some point, I know I’ll grow impatient. My brain is apparently comfortable with self-deception, even as I’m fully aware it’s ongoing.
Humans are weird.
